Is it me or is everyone pregnant or holding a baby these days? My boyfriend said the other day that everyone has babies and pregnancies so I’m going to eventually have to deal with this. So easy for someone without a uterus to say. He didn’t mean it cruelly and he is right. I’m just not sure how to begin.

But for now I’m just numbing it.

Wine, vodka, food. Whatever is handy. Last night I drank 3 glasses of wine by myself. No I don’t need help and no I’m not an alcoholic. But it’s nice to numb it all sometimes and get a little instant happiness.

Unfortunately it usually just numbs everything else and the pain and sadness is all that remains. So there I sit. Drunk and sad.